The boys went off without saying goodbye. Zac was still with me, hugging & comforting me, telling me everything will be okay. I don't know what to do. My mind was in a mess. Everything in life is tumbling down. I can't go on. I just can't. I'm too weak to carry on with my life. I really am. I just feel like sleeping forever. Yes, forever. 'I'm tired,Zac' I whispered in his ear. He break away from the hug & held both my hand. 'Hm... why is that so,love?' He asked lovingly. Each time I hear his voice, my heart starts to beat faster & faster. 'I don't know, I really am tired with life. Do you think I should leave the boys? It hurts me to leave them... but I think it's better for me to leave them' I explained. 'Hmmmm.. I really don't know. Do what's best for you babe. I'll always be here for you.' Zac said as he wrap his arms around me. He then scoop me up from the bed & held me in his arms. I could feel his warmth as he wraps his arms around my body. He reminds me so much of Zayn. I rested my head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat which beats faster & faster. 'I'll take you somewhere" Zac whispered & smiled. I felt so comfortable around him but at the same time, I do miss Zayn. 

I was in his arms the whole time while he sang me one of his favorite song. To my surprise, this good looking guys can sing very very well! I smiled listening to the sound of his voice. 'Zac.. you can sing, why didin't you take part in any audition?' I questioned him, curious.  'Erm... I'm not ready yet. You know, being a celeb is tough. You'll get judge for every single thing you do. You'll get hate & stuff. You know what i mean?' He explained. I nodded my head and smiled. 'You feeling better?' He asked, concerned. 'Yeah, i am! Thanks Zac! This means so much to me!'  I replied with a sincere smile on my face. 'Okay babe, this is the place I always visit whenever I feel sad. It helped me a lot & I hope it  helps you too, love!' Zac said as he put me down. He wrap his arms around my shoulder and he lead me to the park. The park was peaceful, very very peaceful & it really calmed me down. I smiled looking at the beautiful scenery. 'I'll always be here for you' Zac whispered in my ears. 

-Live performance week 2- 

The boys have yet to call or text me. I guess they must be busy preparing for their performance. It was on a Tuesday & I'm in the hospital, waiting for the x-factor to start. Zac went out to buy dinner for us. The x-factor started and I waited patiently for the boys to perform. 'Up next, we have one direction!' Eva announced and welcome the boys on stage. Before they started singing, Louis smiled and said 'This song, My life would suck without you is for a very special girl. She is a really special girl not only to me, but to the rest of the lads. This song is dedicated to you, Diana. We miss you & love you so much. Call us soon' The crowd went Aww and the judges smiled. I smiled when I heard Liam announcing my name. I focused on Zayn through out the whole performance. He wasn't himself. He wasn't smiling. The guys did well, as always. & they received a positive feedback from the judges. 'We miss you Diana!' Louis said before they left the stage. I smiled, knowing that I am still on their mind despite the hurt I have given them. I switched off the TV & waited for Zac to return. 

'How was the x-factor?' He asked as he unpacked our dinner.  'Um. It was alright, i guess' I replied, forcing a smile. 'How did the boy fair? They did great didin't they?' he asked & smiled at the end of the sentence. 'Their performance was amazing! Oh! They mentioned my name on TV!' I told him in excitement.  'Woah, calm down babe! Haha. What did they say?' He asked as he feed me a spoonful of rice. I tried talking with my mouth full but, Zac cover my mouth with his left hand. 'Shh. Finish your food first then you can talk' he said & winked. I swallowed my food & looked at Zac. 'Can i talk now?' i asked him. He nodded and looked at me with a smile across his face. 'Go on' he said. 'Well... the lads told me they missed me... & that the song was dedicated to me! How cool is that?' I told Zac. 'You know what you should do babe' he said and left the room. My mind went blank. I laid down on the bed and stared at the ceiling. 

My iphone then vibrated. Without hesitating, I quickly grab it to see who it was. Zac's name appeared on the screen. My heart beat was racing. I unlock my phone and closed my eyes tightly, hoping that the text won;t hurt me. I slowly open up my eyes and read the text, word by word.

-Text message-

Zac: Hey babe. I'm going for a little work. Don't worry. You should decide on what you want to do alright? Take your time. Text me once you have decided. Take care :) 

I put away my phone, closed my eyes & reflected on my life. What was happening to my life all this while? Why did I let Zayn ruined my entire life? No, he can't ruin my entire life. He can't. I won't leave the boys, i won't. Immediately, i took my phone and texted Liam. 

-Text message-

Diana: Liam! You boys did well. 

Liam: Diana! We miss you! Thank you, hope all is well! x 

Diana: Aw, i miss you too! Visit me soon okay?

Liam: We will be coming!

Diana: How's Zayn?

Liam: He is doing fine, he is now with the girl, haven't you heard?

I didin't reply to Liam's last text. Zayn is already with Kayla. I should really move & be happy for him. If he is happy, I am happy.  I need to let go of him. I need to. No matter how tough it gets, i won't give up. Bye Zayn. Last long & see you soon! I then receive another text message from Liam.

-Text Message-

Liam: Meet me by the park now.

Diana: Which park? x

Liam: th 1 ner the hosp

Diana: Be right there! x 

Liam: c ya!

I left my room & grab my sweater. I waited patiently for the lift & walked towards the park. The evening breeze is amazing. I saw Liam standing there, alone. 'Hi Liam!' I screamed as I run towards him. He open his arms & I ran towards him & gave him a massive hug. 'Hello there princess' he said as he kissed my head softly. 'Hi! What's up?' I asked, still hugging him so tightly. I miss his hugs. Liam always gives the best hugs!

Liam's POV 

There she was, in my arms. I could feel her arms wrapping around my waist tightly. The warmth of her body wrapping around my body. I could feel my body shaking so badly. My lips tried to force a smile. I hug her tighter, not wanting to let her go. Her hugs are always the best & to be in her arms again is one of the best thing. I pull away from the hug, look at her deeply & smiled. I got to do this. It's now or never. Diana looked at me lovingly & smiled. I grab her right hand and kissed it before I started talking. 'Listen to me babe. Just listen. I really hope this won't ruin our friendship. You know .... i have been loving you ever since I first laid my eyes on you. I swear you are one of the most beautiful girl in this world. I tried my best to win you over but Zayn caught your attention. I wanna be loved by you so badly. I want to wake up with you next to me. I want to receive hugs and kisses from you each day. I wanna feel the warmth of your body. I want to tell the whole world you are mine. But i can't do that cause you are not mine. Why Zayn, Diana? Why? why do you love someone who has hurt you badly? I love you, Diana. I really do' I spoke the words. Diana just looked at me with tears in her eyes and smiled. I couldn't control my emotions, so my tears were flowing down my cheeks. She came closer to me, tiptoed & wipe away my tears with her thumb. She gave a kiss on my cheek & left me without saying anything. My body fails, i'm on my knees. I don't know what had happened. I took out my phone & told the other lads to meet me, excluding Zayn. They rushed to the park as soon as possible. 

'Hey bud! What;s up? You don't look good!' Niall said as he messed my hair up. 'I did it' I said. 'Did what,Payne?' Tommo asked as he wrap his arms around my shoulder. 'I just confessed to Diana i loved her' I answered without hesitating. The boys remained silent. 'Well, i'm proud of you!' Harry broke the silence and gave me a hug. 'Huh? why? I asked, curious. The boy with curls is weird, but he makes sense, sometimes! 'Cause, if you didin't admit you love Diana ................ you will probably end up like Zayn. You don't want that to happen, don't you?' Harry asked. The rest of the lads looked at him weirdly. 'He actually makes sense!' Louis said as he pinched Harry's nipple. 'Stop it Boo bear' Harry said as he covers his nipples. They never failed to cheer me up & that's why they are the best. 

I was in my room. Every thing is happening to fast. Zac then texted me again.

-Text message-

Zac: Babe, i'll see you pretty soon. Won't be coming for the next few days. Miss you. Hugs*

Diana: Omg, why? I'll miss you!

Zac: Some stuff, take care babe <3

Diana: You take care <3

Zac left. Everybody is leaving me, why? What have i done wrong? Is it just me or is it them? 

-3 days later-

I'm already back home, alone. My parents are still overseas, expanding their business. & Guess what? I will be meeting the boys for dinner & Zac will be taking me out for lunch! Zac is back! & so are the boys! My life is complete. I switched on the television, waiting for time to pass when suddenly, I saw Zayn's name appearing on the tv screen. 

CELEB GOSSIPS:

One Direction member, Zayn Malik has broke off with Kayla. What happened? Let's look at this interview.

(Interview with Zayn)

Interviewer: Zayn, I heard you broke up with your girlfriend, why is that so? 

Zayn: We are better off as friends.

Interviewer: You sure?

Zayn: You really wanna know why I broke up with her? Let me share with you. I can't go on with Kayla. She doesn't love me the way that girl loves me. She doesn't care for me the way that girl cares for me. She doesn't irritate me the way that girl irritates me. She doesn't kiss me the way that girl kiss me. She doesn't hug me the way that girl hugs me. She doesn't touch me the way that girl touch me. She doesn't joke around with me the way that girl joke with me. Don't get me wrong, Kayla is a wonderful young lady. & any man to get her is indeed lucky. I'm in the wrong. I'm a screwed up mess. I rally am.

Interviewer: Well, Malik, that was honest. So, who is 'that girl' you are talking about? Do the lads know about her?

Zayn: The lads love her.  I can't tell you who 'that girl is' but she should know who she is. I miss you, babe. *blow kisses*

What happened to Zayn? & who is that girl? For more gossips, tune in next next week. 

I switched off the television & rested my head on the sofa. I didin't know how or what to feel. Why does he keep ruining my life? Why Zayn? Why do you come back to me when my life is falling in to place? Why? Just as I expected, my phone vibrated & Zayn's name was on the screen.

-Text message- 

Zayn: Morning! :) x

Diana: What's up?

Zayn: How are you? x :)

Diana: Fine, you? 

Zayn: I'm okay. x :)  I miss you.

Diana: No Zayn, you don't miss me. Don't treat me like im your doll. Just don't. When you're happy, you leave me, making out with other girls. & when you are sad, you come crawling back to me. This isn't the way Zayn. This isn't right. I have feelings too, & I'm not your toy, Malik. You left me for weeks, dated some girl & now you are coming back to me telling me you miss me? What's your point, Zayn? Why do you have to ruin my life? Why? What wrong have I done to you? What? Leave me Zayn. Leave me. 

Zayn: I'm sorry. I won't leave you, i won't ever leave you. We will always find our way back, just like we promised.

Diana: Oh, wow, you remembered our promise? I'm surprise. Hah, whatever Zayn. Do as you please, i don't really care.

Zayn: I'll make you fall in love with me all over again, trust me. 

I didin't even respond to his text. Ugh, I don't get him. He needs to figure out his life. He can't be playing around with my feelings all the time. 

'You know what Zayn? I miss you more than you ever know' I whispered to myself.